I've been thinking lately about desire. blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled [mat.5.6]. There's many things I've wanted in life, but nothing comes about just from desire. Except, according to this verse, righteousness does come from desire, and that there is a really amazing promise. This hunger, thirst, desire must be a truly amazing force. I may not feel righteous right now, but maybe that's okay. After all, Jesus didn't say "blessed are the righteous."
How many times does Jesus ask, what do you want? [luk.18.41] How many of us take the time to truly answer that question, beyond the superficial level? Maybe I want a new house, maybe I want to get published, maybe I just want to get out of grad school, but that's not the deepest answer to the question. I have to look underneath that to my underlying fears, uncertainties, and beliefs.
I still haven't answered the question. Maybe I'm afraid to discover the answer. Maybe there is no answer to the question, or maybe the answer continually changes. So today, I'm sufficient with this: I want to hear and believe God's truth. I want assurance on the right path to follow. I want to fellowship with other believers. I want to pray with someone else. I want to hunger and thirst for righteousness. I want to desire.